Day after day the last remnants of purity step away for the sake of adulthood

I would like to understand the reason why people don't seem to understand such a simple statement... It is not that I like negativism, but I am pretty sure that I dislike positivism even more

-You're judging me...
- What did you expect? I'm human
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I do feel pity for your feigned self-confidence

I like to think I strive for positivism, for illusion. I look for joy, but apparently I always search for that in the wrong places. Circumstances seem to be saying 'fuck off' and the only actual thing I get to find is disillusionment, deception and unjustified suffering. So don't ask me to be hopeful or I'll break your balls.
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