this is not for me
until it is
(hopefully)
~

encore

al final el retorno
no te iguala
ni te acompaña

así
cuando se deshace
y apagas los ojos
de los que me vieron
ajena al retorno
porque no lo necesitaba;
y que vieron todo
claro

entonces
apetece que te agarres a mi
me lleves
adonde no haya,
donde estrangulas al universo
~

it feels right as it has to

creo angeles vivos

de personas muertas

como un laser

me disparan

me dejan ver los globos

la primavera

borrosa

dardos

explotan como flores

acarician lo roto

y me transforman en el demonio

que creó muertos

de ángeles
~

poisoned twice

if i was to be
the luckiest person in the world
i wouldn't need to close my eyes
to believe my disguise

http://youtu.be/TkLT5krv_6c
~

beauty usurps beauty, beautifully beautified and boogity boogity boogity shoo

all gonna be dying
we all gonna be buried

still (our)
                construct
over (their)
                   construct
playing at puppets

saving the                 game
                 unending

~

I'm no mercenary

I remember glancing outside the window

I remember singing stupidly and free as a fucking child. The one i am. A boy, too

Both times i turned around and found what i've denied to myself many many times

I had only me to discuss it so.. i could not conclude anything

I was glancing outside, i was happy you know? and then found you looking
with great disgust
at my ridiculously big imperfections
and same with the kid thing

I know I can get ridiculous, u know? i'm not unaware of it. And you should know we all do.
And I am also aware of my ugliness. You know already. And still you judged it.. doesn't that go beyond unmanageable evil?

I am very sad

You should know I've never acted that way

I did not intend to disturb your sight nor peace. I am truly sorry

The suspended mammal

The white walls hold
my name
tightly

I am suspended

We will never share
Truth is
They never do

why am I still longing


I like solo games u know

Unfortunately,
life is not one of these.
So I stare at
the Wi-Fi adapter


[I do fantasise]