guess what

funny thing you are
appearing at the least expected moment
giving hours of unrest
and rebelling against the forces
that impede you
-not from having-
but from aspiring to have

have I not written already about you?
despised by everyone
victims and culprits
untold, recounted
does it even matter?
YES
it does

always concealed
shrinking the smallest of hopes
smothering the vitality
I already longed

always exposed
smacking our face
reminding us
of our permanent
unchanging
lack of opportunities

the more you try to get rid of it
the more present it is
destroying the good moments
in the thought
in the certainty
that it is never going to evolve

stagnancy
and not only that
helplessness
right from the beginning
towards the end

out of the game
the pace in which you inhabit
to never have a chance
to prove itself
~~
wrong